\u201e\u010clov\u011b\u010de, nev\u00edm, \u010d\u00edm to je, ale u\u017e n\u011bkolik t\u00fddn\u016f se po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b nevysp\u00edm. M\u00e1m \u0161\u00edlen\u00fd sny. Neust\u00e1le m\u011b n\u011bkdo vra\u017ed\u00ed, pron\u00e1sleduje, tah\u00e1 m\u011b n\u011bkam a j\u00e1 se br\u00e1n\u00edm. Po\u0159\u00e1d se mi sna\u017e\u00ed ubl\u00ed\u017eit. M\u00e1m tohle ka\u017edou noc. Bud\u00edm se propocen\u00e1, vyklepan\u00e1 a boj\u00edm se znovu j\u00edt sp\u00e1t. Kdyby se to st\u00e1valo jednou za \u010das, tak si \u0159eknu, jo, dobr\u00fd, no\u010dn\u00ed m\u016fra, ale pro\u010d proboha u\u017e nen\u00ed sen, ve kter\u00e9m by se mi neubli\u017eovalo?\u201c <\/em>vypr\u00e1v\u00ed mi bezradn\u00e1 kamar\u00e1dka.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n <\/p>\n M\u00e1 pravdu, \u017ee je divn\u00e9, kdy\u017e m\u00e1 tohle pravideln\u011b.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n To u\u017e by skute\u010dn\u011b nemuselo b\u00fdt samo sebou.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Jedna no\u010dn\u00ed m\u016fra za \u010das nen\u00ed nic divn\u00e9ho a zpravidla to zp\u016fsob\u00ed nabouran\u00e1 psychika, p\u0159em\u00edra stresu, strach, \u017ee n\u011bco nezvl\u00e1dneme, anebo traumatizuj\u00edc\u00ed z\u00e1\u017eitek za re\u00e1lu, ale takhle pravideln\u011b\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201eHele a vid\u00ed\u0161 tomu n\u011bkomu do tv\u00e1\u0159e?\u201c <\/em>zeptala jsem se. Je to d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9, proto\u017ee by n\u00e1m to mohlo leccos napov\u011bd\u011bt.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201eTo je pr\u00e1v\u011b to divn\u00fd,<\/em>\u201c pov\u00edd\u00e1 ona.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201eNikdy nevid\u00edm ani postavu. Je to jenom s\u00edla, nevid\u00edm nic ne\u017e \u017ee se to se mnou d\u011bje, nem\u00e1m komu se br\u00e1nit,\u201c<\/em> vypr\u00e1v\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A tohle vypr\u00e1v\u011bn\u00ed, kter\u00e9 se odehr\u00e1lo u\u017e asi p\u0159ed p\u011bti lety, byl d\u016fvod, pro\u010d vznikl tenhle \u010dl\u00e1nek.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n To, co kamar\u00e1dce ubli\u017euje, je, jak ona sama \u0159\u00edk\u00e1, jen s\u00edla.<\/p>\n Ve skute\u010dnosti m\u00e1 ale ka\u017ed\u00e1 takov\u00e1 s\u00edla, kter\u00e1 p\u0159ekra\u010duje hranice norm\u00e1ln\u00edho sn\u011bn\u00ed a d\u011bs\u00ed n\u00e1s, sv\u00e9 jm\u00e9no.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Lidsk\u00e9 jm\u00e9no.<\/p>\n Tohle um\u00ed \u010dlov\u011bk.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Prakticky kdokoli z n\u00e1s, ale jen m\u00e1lo lid\u00ed tomu d\u00e1 takov\u00e9 gr\u00e1dy.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n V dob\u011b sp\u00e1nku jsme nechr\u00e1n\u011bn\u00ed, a to v\u011bd\u011bli u\u017e sta\u0159\u00ed indi\u00e1ni, Egyp\u0165an\u00e9 a snad v\u0161echny kultury na\u0161ich p\u0159edk\u016f.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ve sp\u00e1nku jsme nejzraniteln\u011bj\u0161\u00ed.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Na\u0161e nev\u011bdom\u00ed je tak\u0159\u00edkaj\u00edc hol\u00e9 \u2013 nah\u00e9, chcete-li. Jak\u00e1koli energie, kter\u00e1 se k n\u00e1m dost\u00e1v\u00e1, si s n\u00e1mi m\u016f\u017ee d\u011blat prakticky, co chce.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Je ale dob\u0159e sv\u00e9 podv\u011bdom\u00ed, zvl\u00e1\u0161t\u011b pak v podob\u011b sn\u016f, ale i pocitu dob\u0159e poslouchat.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A m\u016f\u017eeme se chr\u00e1nit.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Minim\u00e1ln\u011b po dobu, ne\u017e zjist\u00edme, kdo n\u00e1m ubli\u017euje.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A te\u010f jak to ud\u011blat, abych sebe ochr\u00e1nila, a p\u0159itom nebyl m\u016fj ochrann\u00fd prost\u0159edek sou\u010dasn\u011b \u00fatokem?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Je pravd\u011bpodobn\u00e9, \u017ee ritu\u00e1l, kter\u00fd zvol\u00edme na ochranu, ten druh\u00fd v\u00fdrazn\u011b poc\u00edt\u00ed.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nen\u00ed pot\u0159eba se d\u011bsit. To, co se mu dostane, je jeho vlastn\u00ed model. Obrana, je-li my\u0161lena jen jako obrana, pak nen\u00ed \u00fatokem.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u00dato\u010d\u00ed \u00fato\u010dn\u00edk.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Pokud hod\u00edm proti pru\u017en\u00e9mu prost\u0159ed\u00ed cihlu a ona mi zp\u016fsob\u00ed na \u010dele bolestiv\u00fd otisk, m\u016f\u017ee za to ze\u010f??<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201eVezmi si n\u011bco, co m\u00e1 hroty, a zrcadlo. Tam, kde m\u00e1\u0161 hlavu, nap\u0159\u00edklad na ze\u010f, p\u0159ipevni p\u0159edm\u011bty s hroty. V\u00fdborn\u011b se hod\u00ed nap\u0159\u00edklad v\u011btvi\u010dky se\u0159ezan\u00e9 na konci do \u0161pi\u010dky. M\u011bly by sm\u011b\u0159ovat vzh\u016fru. Sta\u010d\u00ed p\u00e1r. Ale sud\u00fd po\u010det.<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n K noh\u00e1m na pelest postele pak p\u0159ipevni zrcadlo.<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nemus\u00ed b\u00fdt nijak velik\u00e9, ale malink\u00e9 tak\u00e9 ne.<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Jeho odrazov\u00e1 strana bude sm\u011b\u0159ovat od tebe. Ochr\u00e1n\u00ed t\u011b to\u201c.<\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Poradila jsem a doufala, \u017ee to bude sta\u010dit, proto\u017ee \u010dlov\u011bka lze i prokl\u00ednat, a to u\u017e by bylo o v\u011bt\u0161\u00edm ritu\u00e1lu, sou\u010dasn\u011b i v\u011bt\u0161\u00edm probl\u00e9mu pro toho, od koho kletby vych\u00e1zej\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Tehdy jsme ani jedna netu\u0161ily, od koho to poch\u00e1z\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Dnes to v\u00edm a ona tak\u00e9.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n U\u017e je v pohod\u011b.<\/p>\n Ritu\u00e1l j\u00ed tehdy pomohl ve sp\u00e1nku, ale nepomohl j\u00ed za dne.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bylo to zvl\u00e1\u0161tn\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u017dila tehdy s mu\u017eem jm\u00e9nem Ren\u00e9.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ona nebyla \u00fapln\u011b spokojen\u00e1, ale \u017ee by se n\u011bjak u\u017e\u00edrala, to se tak\u00e9 \u0159\u00edct nedalo.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nem\u011bla ani odvahu ani potenci\u00e1l n\u011bco \u0159e\u0161it, proto\u017ee ho m\u011bla r\u00e1da.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Tak r\u00e1da, \u017ee ho \u00fasp\u011b\u0161n\u011b \u017eivila, proto\u017ee chlapec n\u011bjak ne a ne naj\u00edt pr\u00e1ci v oboru, jednodu\u0161e se mu pracovat moc necht\u011blo a ona m\u011bla jednak sv\u016fj p\u0159\u00edjem a jednak dost pen\u011bz od otce.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Vlastn\u011b pracovat nemusela, ale pracovala, proto\u017ee by se nudila.<\/p>\n Na na\u0161e nar\u00e1\u017eky na adresu Ren\u00e9ho reagovala t\u00edm, \u017ee je to jedno, \u017ee hlady neum\u00edraj\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n No, on rozhodn\u011b neum\u00edral, proto tak\u00e9 nijak nesp\u011bchal s n\u011bjak\u00fdm p\u0159\u00ednosem do rozpo\u010dtu.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Po ritu\u00e1lu spala celkem klidn\u011b a jej\u00ed m\u016fry se zmen\u0161ily, i kdy\u017e se \u00fapln\u011b neztratily, bohu\u017eel.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Zaj\u00edmav\u00e9 bylo, \u017ee na\u0161\u00ed spole\u010dnou kolegyni o zhruba dva t\u00fddny pozd\u011bji odvezli do nemocnice se z\u00e1n\u011btem \u017ealudku a do toho se j\u00ed je\u0161t\u011b p\u0159idala ledvinov\u00e1 kolika.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Litovaly jsme ji a vypravily se za n\u00ed do Motola, kde le\u017eela.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Jak u\u017e to b\u00fdv\u00e1, n\u00e1hody se ned\u011bj\u00ed a v moment\u011b, kdy\u017e jsme vstoupily do jej\u00edho pokoje, na\u0161li jsme j\u00ed v objet\u00ed s Ren\u00e9m.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ona kamar\u00e1dka (mohla bych j\u00ed zm\u011bnit jm\u00e9no, ale je to jedno)<\/em> s n\u00e1mi tehdy nebyla.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Hodn\u011b jsme diskutovaly o tom, jestli j\u00ed to m\u00e1me \u0159\u00edct, jestli je na takovou pravdu p\u0159ipraven\u00e1, a jestli se to neobr\u00e1t\u00ed proti n\u00e1m.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Vy\u0159e\u0161il to Ren\u00e9 a ona kolegyn\u011b.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ren\u00e9 mi z n\u011bjak\u00e9 putyky patrn\u011b ne \u00fapln\u011b st\u0159\u00edzliv\u00fd napsal podivnou SMS, kde psal, \u017ee si m\u00e1m s t\u00edm, co jsem vid\u011bla, nalo\u017eit jak chci, ale \u017ee mi do nich nic nen\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ona kolegyn\u011b pak jedn\u00e9 z n\u00e1s, kter\u00e1 tam s n\u00e1mi za n\u00ed \u0161la, \u0159ekla, \u017ee stejn\u011b o nic nejde, \u017ee Ren\u00e9 ze vztahu neodejde, \u017ee to by musela ona kamar\u00e1dka um\u0159\u00edt.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Pak se sv\u011b\u0159ila, jak ho miluje a podobn\u011b, a \u017ee to nem\u00e1 vlastn\u011b \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Tehdy mi to do\u0161lo.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n T\u00edm, \u017ee on \u0159ekl, \u017ee by musela kamar\u00e1dka zem\u0159\u00edt, vlastn\u011b tuhle kolegyni motivoval k my\u0161lence, o kter\u00e9 sama nemusela v\u016fbec tu\u0161it, jak je zl\u00e1.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Podv\u011bdom\u011b si p\u0159\u00e1la jej\u00ed smrt.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n To byla ta s\u00edla, co kamar\u00e1dce ubli\u017eovala, pron\u00e1sledovala\u2026vlastn\u011b j\u00ed vra\u017edila ale trochu jinak.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Jsem si jist\u00e1, \u017ee o tom tahle kolegyn\u011b ani nev\u011bd\u011bla.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Vy\u0159e\u0161ilo se to vlastn\u011b samo asi za m\u011bs\u00edc.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Projela mu mobil.<\/p>\n Jen tak sama od sebe, nebo kdo v\u00ed pro\u010d, prost\u011b\u017eeny maj\u00ed intuici, ale ud\u011blala to.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A vyhodila ho.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A v\u00edte, co j\u00ed \u0159ekl?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201eChc\u00edpni\u201c.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n No, nechc\u00edpla, ani on nechc\u00edpnul, ani kolegyn\u011b, nech\u00edpl nikdo.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n On \u017eije n\u011bkde na severu \u010cech a je s\u00e1m, kamar\u00e1dka se vdala do Kanady a kolegyn\u011b m\u00e1 n\u011bjak\u00e9ho chlap\u00edka, pokud v\u00edm a nen\u00ed ne\u0161\u0165astn\u00e1.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n V ka\u017ed\u00e9m p\u0159\u00edpad\u011b, ona podle m\u00e9ho v\u016fbec netu\u0161ila, co t\u00e9 holce prov\u00e1d\u00ed.<\/p>\n Po ritu\u00e1lu to odnesla, ani\u017e by vlastn\u011b v\u011bd\u011bla, jak\u00e1 n\u00e1lo\u017e se j\u00ed vrac\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n A jedin\u00fd blbec v tom cel\u00e9m, byl Ren\u00e9 a mo\u017en\u00e1 chv\u00edli ona kamar\u00e1dka, \u017ee necht\u011bla vid\u011bt, co je to za\u010d, a\u010dkoli to je omluviteln\u00e9, to d\u011bl\u00e1me ob\u010das v\u0161echny.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ten ritu\u00e1l funguje a mysl\u00edm, \u017ee je dobr\u00e9 v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee n\u011bco takov\u00e9ho se m\u016f\u017ee st\u00e1t a \u010dlov\u011bk si m\u016f\u017ee i pomoci.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nem\u011bli bychom ale myslet na n\u011bkoho jako na mrtv\u00e9ho, nebo nemocn\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n Proto\u017ee on to v\u00ed, ale \u010dasto nev\u00ed, co v\u00ed.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Rozhodn\u011b mu nen\u00ed dob\u0159e.<\/strong><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Michaela Kudl\u00e1\u010dkov\u00e1<\/em><\/p>\n [sexy_author_bio]<\/p>\n Views: 119 \u201e\u010clov\u011b\u010de, nev\u00edm, \u010d\u00edm to je, ale u\u017e n\u011bkolik t\u00fddn\u016f se po\u0159\u00e1dn\u011b nevysp\u00edm. 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